You can’t keep doing this!
You can’t keep doing shitty things and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it okay!
You need to be better! just stop.
You are all the things that are wrong with you.
It’s not the alcohol, or the drugs, or any of the shitty things that happened to you in your life,
or when you were a kid.
It’s you.
Okay?
It’s you.
No Audio, unfortunately. It does sound like fireworks tho. A mess of them.
Also, only recorded it at 15 fps, so it is not as glorious as it could be.
Now I realize I loved you too much
It’s so hard for me to love someone
And what am I supposed to do
When the best thing for us is away from you now?
I can do without you
I was in love
Not much left to say
This life, not meant to go my way
I was sure that you
Wouldn’t want me to
But you walked away
Like it was nothing
Now I realized I loved you too much
It’s so hard for me to love someone
And what am I supposed to do
When the best thing for us is away from you now?
I can do without you
I was sure that you
Wouldn’t want me to
But you walked away
Like it was nothing
Now I realized I loves you too much
It’s so hard for me to love someone
And what am I supposed to do
When the best thing for us is away from you now?
I can do without you
She buys a new dress for the party,
She always looks good in red.
Turns around in front of the mirror
And disappears inside of her head.
She wonders if he’ll even remember,
She asked him in a casual way.
Just in case he didn’t want to go with her,
In that event she knew just what she would say.
She thought of maybe asking a girlfriend,
Even though she only has one or two.
She’s always done much better with boys anyway,
So who needs girlfriends?
Pacing nervous across the floor of her bedroom,
Gripping tight the phone in her hand.
Fighting beck the rush of emotions,
And dreaming of just having a man.
It’s a long walk, and the music is loud.
She sees an old friend,
As she walks through the crowd.
Puts on her best smile,
But underneath she’s a broken girl.
But It’s a long walk, and the music is loud.
She sees an old friend,
As she walks through the crowd.
Puts on her best smile,
But she will always be a broken girl.
She struggles with an awful decision,
Stay at home or walk in alone.
Her mother does her best to console her,
Her father doesn’t know what to say.
Puts on her makeup, puts on the new dress.
Holds her head high, then gets in the car.
Tells herself that no one will notice,
Assuming she can make it that far.
On the way she imagines reactions.
Cupped hands whispering into ears.
Secretly hoping that he’ll be there watching,
And she’s also hoping he won’t.
Walking tentative alone up the driveway,
Sees some people smoking off to the side.
She stops and waits until they go back in,
Crosses her fingers and follows behind.
It’s a long walk, and the music is loud.
She sees an old friend,
As she walks through the crowd.
Puts on her best smile,
But underneath she’s a broken girl.
But It’s a long walk, and the music is loud.
She sees an old friend,
As she walks through the crowd.
Puts on her best smile,
But she will always be a broken girl.
He’ll never get you,
He will never understand.
He’ll never get you, you can find a better man.
This might be the time to break down.
Hush child don’t make a sound.
Home is where the heart is.
Too bad I gave you my heart.
At night I just stare amid my self-destructive toys
Shouting to the sky is anyone up there
My eyes drip blood red a vow once made
I’ve come to dread this shame
This guilt I bear is killing me stone dead
Dead man
Something to regret a chance point in time we met
Caught in a momentary rush of devotion
My eyes drip blood red a vow once made
I’ve come to dread this shame
This guilt I bear is killing me stone dead
Dead man
Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the lord my soul to keep
If I should die before I wake
This dead man’s prayer do not forsake
Pray dead man
