every time
Toad in a hole
It’s you.
You can’t keep doing this!
You can’t keep doing shitty things and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it okay!
You need to be better! just stop.
You are all the things that are wrong with you.
It’s not the alcohol, or the drugs, or any of the shitty things that happened to you in your life,
or when you were a kid.
It’s you.
Okay?
It’s you.
Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/friendship-20/201907/what-is-rejection-sensitive-dysphoria
- Self-esteem that is entirely dependent on what others think, and rises and falls accordingly
- Isolating yourself in a preemptive strike not to be rejected
- High sensitivity about the possibility of rejection
- Overly high standards for yourself
- Feeling easily triggered toward guilt or shame
- Aggressive or rageful behavior toward those who have been perceived to have slighted you
- Frequently feeling an uncomfortable physical reaction due to “not fitting in” or being misunderstood
- Frequent and intense ruminating after an interaction about how you did or said something wrong
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapy-types/dialectical-behavior-therapy
